I need magical moments...

When do dreams come true?

Finally found you..

I had a very painful palate last night. And this morning, when i woke up, it was like all the flu were trapped in the palate and i felt congested all over my nose through throat. Darn.. I so hate it very much as it really put off my mood to do anything. Slept the whole day hoping it would get better.. with a little help from redoxon. Speaking of which, i think i'm a little addicted to it already... hmm..

The boyfriend took me to the clinic.. along with his nephew and nieces. The doc said i'm having a palate infection.. hmm.. is that so? sucks!

Anyway, the bf's nephew and nieces are just so adorable. There is something about the bf that i do not wish to share with anyone when he is around them... it's only for me to know and feel.. it's this aura.. and i love it. And one thing for sure I am falling in love with him again and again every time. I just love the man in him.

Anyway, the eldest niece asked me:

"Aunty Naz, nak tanya boleh tak.. tapi aunty naz jgn kecik hati ya"

"Tanya la... apa dia?", ok for a second i was kinda cuak sket.. haha..

"Macamana Aunty naz kenal a***n", (sorry, can't reveal what they call their uncle.. hehe)

The bf & i were laughing when we heard the question and the bf & i were like...

"Eiiiiii.. kecik hati nya.. hahahaha.." it was funny... hahaha.. at least i think it was.. ingat kan apa la dia nak tanya...


To end the entry... this song is especially dedicated to the sweetheart of mine (if he ever reads it.. i know he will.. *wink*)..

I FINALLY FOUND SOMEONE (Barbra Streisand & Bryan Adams)

I finally found someone, that knocks me off my feet
I finally found the one, that makes me feel complete
We started over coffee, we started out as friends
It's funny how from simple things, the best things begin

This time it's different, dah dah dah dah
It's all because of you, dah dah dah dah
It's better than it's ever been
'Cause we can talk it through
Oohh, my favorite line was "Can I call you sometime?"
It's all you had to say to take my breath away

(Chorus)
This is it, oh, I finally found someone
Someone to share my life
I finally found the one, to be with every night
'Cause whatever I do, it's just got to be you
My life has just begun
I finally found someone, ooh, someone
I finally found someone, oooh

Did I keep you waiting, I didn't mind
I apologize, baby, that's fine
I would wait forever just to know you were mine
And I love your hair, sure it looks fine
I love what you wear, isn't it the time?
You're exceptional, I can't wait for the rest of my life

(Repeat Chorus)

Whatever I do, it's just got to be you
My life has just begun
I finally found someone

p/s: It's funny that when i looked back during uni time, i had no idea that we'll be together 5 years after graduated and that we are so insanely in love now... life is just miracle and full of surprises.. right?

Hari Raya Aidiladha - The highlights

I can't remember exactly when was the last time I went back to my hometown in Kota Bharu. The longest in the history of my life for the past 28 years. When my grandma was around, we would always make it appoint to go back at least once every 6 months. And as it was agreed between my parents, if Raya puasa for the year would be in Johor, than raya haji would be in Kelantan, and vice versa. Due to the mutual agreement that was set prior to the birth of the children, we, the kids were so happy as we love love love to travel up the east coast and down the south each year. However, as the time passed by and as we grow older, I noticed that I don't enjoy the long travel as much as before. Probably because now, we need 2 cars to travel long distance as 1 car can no longer fits us. Furthermore, after my grandma passed away in 2006, going back to Kelantan was just not as nice as before.

The aidil adha this year, it was quite a surprise when ayah decided to do "korban" there. Which means, we would be celebrating eid there. And to my surprise, I was quite excited to actually go back to Kota Bharu this time around. Despite of having the bad thoughts of sleeping at arwah's abandoned house.. I was happy that we were going back there. On top of that, we do not need to take 2 cars with us no more. Ayah bought over a 7-seater mpv from his brother few weeks back and that was the ride for all of us.. all under one roof! Ok, enuff with all the rambles.. let the pictures do the talking now.. ;p

~i am sleepy... to be continued with uploading more pixs! ~

Berkemban

I was reading a blogger's blog when i came across this entry by him. It somehow attracts me as much as it reminds me of one recent incident where i got scolded from someone sebab "berkemban" dari toilet ker bilik kat kampung masa raya baru-baru ni. Yeap.. the house was full of aunties, uncles, cousins.. *grrrr...*... x buat dah x buat dah... ;p

Movies movies movies

Since both the boyfriend & I are two movie freaks... i've listed down all on the bottom left side the movies we both watched so far... hmm... hope i didn't miss any movie out.. ;p

p/s: ni kes xde keja la ni sbnrnya... :))

Happy birthday sayang!

Love is precious in many ways.
Love is embrace passion.
Love is eternal happiness.
Love is heart felt emotions.
Love is the understanding of one another.
Love is that special someone.
Love is flying without wings.
Love is the joy you feel with someone.
Love is caring for someone special.
Love is that who touches your heart.
Love is what makes your heart beat.
Love is the healing power of your heart and soul.
Love is that beauty within.
Love is what makes dreams come true.
Love is the fuel of the heart and soul.
Love is the foundation of life.
Love is the meaning of life.

May all your dreams and wishes come true!

~ Happy birthday baby ~

No title

I haven't figured out yet what should be the title of my entry this time. Oh yes, and I haven't been updating since ages.. more than a month now.. thanks to the FV on FB.. been plowing, seeding, harvesting every single time i get my hands on the computer like nobody's business. I did have few attempts of logging into the blogspot to update only to find myself staring at the empty white screen. I just didn't have the mood to update... ;o

And yes, within that one month, there were many things that happened. Here are some of the recaps:

1. Received my bonus letter... it was SUCKS big time.. i wasn't happy.. so i don't wanna talk about it.. ;(

2. Went looking for rings with the bf.. almost bought this one nice ring. But then, told him that maybe we shoud just wait for the end of year sale, mana la tahu ada yang lagi best.

3. Still on the engagement ring, i think i've hurt the bf when i told him "u x payah la cincin tunang, my friends sumer x bg pun husband derang cincin masa tunang".. it was a big time mistake.. should have not said that. He is sort of merajuk now that he does not want any ring at all.. and yeap, i got scolded from my dad too, apparently my mum gave him a ring on their engagement and ayah said "normal la tu kalau dia nak cincin tunang". Should have discussed with my parents rather than dgr org cakap... sigh... i am so sorry baby.. i didn't know..:( and as a result, we don't really talk much about the engagement plan anymore.. and i'm just so so so sad.. :(

4. My second cousin who is 25 years old is getting married in 2 weeks time.. bear in mind.. it's a guy.. sigh... and as always.. my aunties are being kepoh'ing asking "awak ni bila lagi... jgn la lama2 sgt bercinta.." err.. hello... have u all heard of the word 'jodoh' before... god.. stressfully annoying!!

5. I hate that place sooooo much and the people in it... all the plastic ones... they are all freaking fake!

6. Movies we watched in Oct/Nov that I can remember: Law abiding citizen, Jennifer's body, Time traveller's wife, Ninja, Papadom, Surrogate, Beyond resonable doubt. Ermm.. we spent too much on movies.. but i guessed this habit will go off once we settled down.. kan baby?

Erm.. almost 1am on a Monday morning... do i have to go to work 2mrw??? darn!!! Think i should head off to bed..

p/s: I love him to bits.. i am crazily in love with him... ok ok enuf mushying.. nite! ;p

Hate & love

No matter how much i hate it for the things that u did, for the times u made me sad or angry or pissed off, for being completely cold, selfish and heartless at times..

i still love u

Meet the parents

Alhamdulillah, the meeting went well.

The weekend the boyfriend & i met after Raya, he said he wanted me to come for Raya to meet his family. I was happy, yes, but I wouldn't want to end up in frustration just like what happened when i came back from umrah. So, not to jinx it, I just kept it to myself until the day comes.

Never would I have thought that I would be so nervous to meet up with the family up until last night. Seriously, I was having a massive nervous breakdown. And I told him on the way back from movie about my feeling. And he answered "Kalau takut, x payah la jumpa." Eh, eh, budak ni, bukan nak comfort kiter.. camtu lak dia jawab. Hmm.. not to make things worse such as starting an argument, I just stayed silent. Malas nak menjawab. Kang lain pulak jadinya.

So when I reached home that night, I could not find anyone better to tell about my nervousness, and so my parents la jadi tempat mengadu. Ayah gave me this doa untuk tenang kan hati and jauh kan perasaan gementar tu. Almaklum la, nak solat tak bleh pulak, so baca doa jer la. Mama siap pesan "Pakai la baju kurung esok ye, elok sikit." Hmm.. okie mummy..

The night passed very quickly when I entered today, the day that I've been waiting for. Again, I was having a difficulty to choose what to wear... opps.. not what to wear, I know that i'm going to where a baju kurung, but which one?? Again.... mama, ayah and wati (my eldest sister) became my adviser. But the problem was, all three of them picked up a different baju for me:-

Mama chose the plain red thai silk baju kurung pahang with beads at the v-line neck and wrist. The material that I bought in Phuket last year.

Ayah chose the green modern baju kurung which I bought the material in KL

Wati chose the blue top with sulam on the arms which i normally wear with my blue silk sarong

And I actually ironed all three baju together with the tudung, tried all three also with tudung and i was still undecided. But after careful consideration (cewah...), I decided to wear the baju that mama chose. Yelah, kan nak jumpa the boyfriend's mother, so I supposed mama's choice would be the best one.

Alhamdulillah, the meeting was not as bad as I thought.. sampai nak kena nervous breakdown kan. Ni the boyfriend punya pasal la.. asyik jer nak takut2 kan orang.. teruk tul..

Eh, mama dah balik.. and she is calling me.. sure nak tanya updates pasal today.. okie peeps, tbc... =)

Owh.. in conclusion.. today was a blast.. and I'm happy.. *grinnnn*

Neither happy nor sad

I'm pissed!

As expected.

Should have followed my instinct.

One hell of a BLARDY great year!

Footnote : The boyfriend said "Takpe b, elok jugak camni, baru u lagi bersemangat nak ....................". And he is right.