My mind travels with him

He's on his way balik kampung for Hari Raya Haji and I've started missing him already. Serious aku tgh angau giler ni.. baca buku kat library pun ingat dia. Hmm.....

I wish...

it is easy for me to express how i feel towards him...

• when both of you have been friends for so long, the chances of him to accept u as his special someone may be very slim.
• i never though in my life that i would fall to someone who is my friend. yes, we have never been very close previously but an occasion brought us closer.
  
• it's nice being around him... he makes my day.. and i know that i am happy just being near him.
• it's like there's a chemistry between us.. a connection. I just love talking to him.
• he's like a drug to me.. my own brand of heroin (taken from Twilight.. hehe)

I wonder if he feels the same.. or is it just me... feeling the way that i felt.. I wish i know.. I wish he would tell me.. sigh.....

p/s: this entry is abit mushy.. i guessed i may be in my romantic mode currently.. huhuhu.. just bear with me yeah.. ;p

Girls talk

Met Rila and Zurina last Monday night. So b4 Zu sampai, sempat la bergossip dgn Rila. Gossips?? Not exactly gossips la.. basically bout me, being and flying on clouds. Sorry Zu, didn't mean to keep it from you. Seriously i mmg nak share with you my excitement but I think it's just not the right time yet. Ok2, back to my so called "gossips" with Miss Rila, one part of the conversation went like this:-

Rila : Owh my god girl, there are sparkles all over your face.. i know that feeling..

Me : Is it that obvious?

Rila : Oh yes... i know you.. ok updates...?

Me : Ah, I'm going crazie.. do u think he likes me as much as i like him? you know, not the friend kind of like?

Rila : Have you told him that you like him?

Me : Giler aaah... that would be so embarrassing ok. What if he doesn't like me that way?

Rila : But at least you know the answer now. Don't go around the bushes. It might hurt you later.

Me : Uh.. I cannot bear another frustration. Ok, let say, I bagitau dia that I like him.. then, what next?

Rila : Then if he likes you, perhaps you guys can start from there.

Me : And what if he doesn't like me that way? We've been friends for so long, I just don't want to spoil it. I love the feeling I'm having right now. It made my day.. u know after what had happened previously.

Rila : Yes darling, I know. I wish i have that feeling too. At least, your guy is in front of you. Where's mine?

Me : My guy? I wish Rila, I wish.. It's weird, after so long, tiba2 i have this feeling towards him. Where does the feelings come from?

Rila : Things happened dear. You don't asked for feelings to come.. it comes.. That is what love is all about.

Me : Love? Yeah... For all i know, he may not even notice that I exist. Sad huh...?

Rila : No la... think positive ok.... hmmmm.......

Me: Hmmmm.....

So, the conversation was left hanging. Zu came 5 mins later and we just dropped the subject. Still feeling guilty of keeping it from Zu but I know she would understand why. And the chances of Zu reading this is slim if not absence altogether. So i'm pretty safe for now.. hopefully... hehehe...

Dating?

Someone asked me to define "dating". So dear, here is the definition of it (though i think i should rephrase the question to "are you seeing anyone at the moment?")

Dating:
A date refers to an activity two people share together with the intention of getting to know each other better on a potentially romantic level. Two people who are "dating" therefore, have shared several dates together and have made it clear to one another they are interested in more than just a friendship - even if so far the exchanges have been purely friendly in nature. Dating is, essentially, getting to know someone over an extended period of time to determine if a relationship is something worth pursuing.


p/s : how can one make a person ridiculously on cloud nine...? i wonder....