3 more days..

Semoga Allah S.W.T melancarkan perjalanan ku
mengerjakan umrah dengan sempurna.

Amin.

Can't sleep.. surf lagu la...

Yuna-Dan Sebenarnya

Yuna -Dan Sebenarnya

oh bulan
jangan layan diriku lagi
pabila,
air mata membasahi pipi
dan lagu2 di radio seolah2 memerli aku
pabila,
kau bersama yg lain

adakah perasaaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta
yang masih bersemadi untukmu
dan sebenarya ku mengharapkan
di sebalik senyuman mu itu
kau juga merindui aku

ku enggan
berpura pura ku bahagia
ku enggan
melihat kau bersama si dia
oh ku akui cemburu
telah menular dalam diri
pabila
kau bersama yang lain

adakah perasaaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta
yang masih bersemadi untukmu
dan sebenarya ku mengharapkan
di sebalik senyuman mu itu
kau juga merindui aku

pabila kau merenung matanya
ku rebah,
jatuh ke bumi
di saat kau benar-benar mahu pergi
seperti ku bernafas dalam air
adakah perasaaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta
yang masih bersemadi untukmu
dan sebenarya ku mengharapkan
di sebalik senyuman mu itu kau juga merindui aku
oh

I'm happy

Thank you baby..

I want the thing in the advert

I was at the pyramid today with the boyfriend. While walking, we passed a few shops when suddenly my eyes stopped on this advert. It's a diamond ring advert at the entrance to a diamond shop. The ring was unbelievably gorgeous. I never had the feeling of wanting a ring so badly but the moment i saw that ring, I was like whispering in my heart "I want that ring".

Told my sister bout it and she posed me this question:

"Is it the ring that you want, or is it a marriage that you want?"

I looked at her and slowly I answered,

"I think i'm missing something in my life the moment I saw that advert. I want a ring on my finger. And yes, I am ready for a marriage".

"Is he ready yet?" Her next question.

With a short paused I replied, "I don't know..."


The conversation went on for a while. I hate to talk about marriage as it always lead to frustration at the end of the day. I used to have hopes that one day the man of my dream would come to me and propose. But I stopped hoping for it sometime last year right after i ended up my previous relationship.

And with the new relationship, I want so much to have that hopes again but I am just so afraid to have that hopes and yet to even talk about it. I don't want to end up again in frustration. I do not want anymore plain talks.. I just want it to happen...

Hmm..

Just came back from watching Angels & Demons. Great movie I must say though I was dozing off once or twice while leaning on the boyfriend's chest while watching the movie. Was feeling sooo sleepy probably due to late night sleep in PD plus the comfort of the boyfriend's muscular chest and arms around me.

Miss him so much.

Had a row with him 3 nights in a row. Poor him. I feel bad. Probably I was going to have my mensus sbb tu super sensitive for the past few nights. Owh my sense of jealousy was pretty bad too. I know. Bukan I x sedar that I should not have behaved that way. I'm so so sorry sayang. Didn't mean to. It's just that, with him out station for the whole week last week plus my mensus coming, plus missing him like crazy sampai nak marah pun ada, everything just piled up. I was so sensitive that eveything dia cakap or tak cakap I terasa. Being me, after I have let out my anger and frustration at him, then after that ok la. But of cos, after that the boyfriend pula yg marah with me behaving that way so last2 dua2 merajuk, dua2 marah... sigh.. And seriously, I hate that I made him angry sbb it will last god knows till when. Tu la, masa nak vent out the anger and frustration x fk dulu, bila the boyfriend dah start marah baru la nak menyesal. Huhu..

Sayang, I am so so sorry for behaving that way. Sorry ye baby.

This says it all.. I need not say more..

Link

i miss u..

Eventually

With reference to this, he has met the folks. Happpppyyy nyerr.. :)

I was as much nervous at he was. But for the boyfriend to agree to come to the family dinner for the 1st time and got along well with over 30 people was rather impressive.

Is crying the best medicine when u r sad?

I did something that I should have not done.

I feel bad.

Life is just so unfair sometimes. Is being patience worth it? Patience has a limit and when it reaches the limit, you tend to do things that is out of your control. You changed things within split second just because u can't take it anymore.

And regret it later?

Sometimes u don't.

Because, the things you've changed have actually bring goodness to you, to your life.

What I did today was unplanned.

Coincidence?

Yeap! Sort of..

My sis said I should not feel bad

Cos I did not do anything wrong

I just did what I have to do..

But why the sadness?

Why the tears?

I have no answers

Nice?

Vs

Of course the price for Gucci Pelham is much much expensive as compared to the Coach new madison. Pelham is selling at RM5K+ while the New Madison is only RM1,600. Hmmm... probably I'll grab the New Madison first. Pelham tu tunggu the income from my business masuk la kot. It's a classic so no worries about it being outdated ke apa right. What ever it is, the boyfriend suruh settle kan umrah dulu baru nak fk benda lain. Ouch! huhuhu....

Thoughts

Something that I suddenly remember...

I remember i told you before that I wish I could go to bed each night to know that you are mine.. and I wish I could wake up each morning to know that you are mine..

And baby, I think about that every night and every morning and I am so thankful that I can call you mine...

~ naz ~

Quality time with the kids

Venue : Uncle Zul's house

Occasion : The birthday's celebration of the big baby (Uncle ler..)

3 May 2009

Wati & Ahmad

Sis & I

peace!

peace lagi!

Ahmad masam sbb kena paksa amek gambar.. huhu..

Uncle ku (b-day boy!) yang sebok kat belakang tu

Umairah - last time I saw her she was still a baby

Me & 2 kiddos - susah tul nak ajak amek gambar

Time ni sumer dah penat dah

Camera freaK.. ;p

Meeting the folks

The boyfriend and I had another conversation today about meeting my parents.

End result?

None..

I guess he's not ready yet.

When would he be ready then?

Ntah la...

Frustrated?

Yup..

Upset?

Yup..

Oh well..

Tunggu jer la..

Let the time takes it's own cause

My new life, my new breath

:: Love u so dearly ::

And finally..

We eventually came to the end of April filing compliance. What more can i say? Alhamdulillah..

Post mortem? Stay tune for that ya!