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Sunday, 17 May 2009

I want the thing in the advert

I was at the pyramid today with the boyfriend. While walking, we passed a few shops when suddenly my eyes stopped on this advert. It's a diamond ring advert at the entrance to a diamond shop. The ring was unbelievably gorgeous. I never had the feeling of wanting a ring so badly but the moment i saw that ring, I was like whispering in my heart "I want that ring".

Told my sister bout it and she posed me this question:

"Is it the ring that you want, or is it a marriage that you want?"

I looked at her and slowly I answered,

"I think i'm missing something in my life the moment I saw that advert. I want a ring on my finger. And yes, I am ready for a marriage".

"Is he ready yet?" Her next question.

With a short paused I replied, "I don't know..."

The conversation went on for a while. I hate to talk about marriage as it always lead to frustration at the end of the day. I used to have hopes that one day the man of my dream would come to me and propose. But I stopped hoping for it sometime last year right after i ended up my previous relationship.

And with the new relationship, I want so much to have that hopes again but I am just so afraid to have that hopes and yet to even talk about it. I don't want to end up again in frustration. I do not want anymore plain talks.. I just want it to happen...

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