THROUGH HER THICK & THIN
“Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened."






Disclaimer:

This is a personal blog about a woman - as a daughter, a wife, a career woman, a homemaker, a mommy - and her thoughts and feelings through out her personal/work lives, as a citizen of her beloved country, her previous journey to motherhood and her journey as a mommy. This blog has no intention to offend or to have an influence on anyone. Read at your cost. Erti kata lain, if x suka, u r welcome to click the "X" on the top right hand corner. Erti kata lain lagi, tak payah ler baca...

Tuesday 30 December 2008

When she's happy.. (Volume 2)


If this is the reward after all the tough times I had to go through before.. alhamdulillah...

Kau begitu sempurna

A song for my other half..




Kau begitu sempurna
Dimataku kau begitu indah
kau membuat diriku akan slalu memujamu

Disetiap langkahku
Kukan slalu memikirkan dirimu
Tak bisa kubayangkan hidupku tanpa cintamu

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Janganlah kau tinggalkan diriku
Takkan mampu menghadapi semua
Hanya bersamamu ku akan bisa

Kau adalah darahku
Kau adalah jantungku
Kau adalah hidupku
Lengkapi diriku
Oh sayangku, kau begitu
Sempurna.. Sempurna..

Kau genggam tanganku
Saat diriku lemah dan terjatuh
Kau bisikkan kata dan hapus semua sesalku


Song "Sempurna", by Andra and The Backbone


Saturday 20 December 2008

A year ago


This was taken a year ago. I seriously miss this hair style. Tp susah sgt nak maintain.. plus the maintenance is super duper expensive ok. U need lots and lots of moose to hold the curl. And it was at its best when it is wet. So every time nak keluar kena basah kan rambut.. uish.. susah betul. I kept this style for about 6 months jer before i decided to straighten back my hair. Hmm.. most of my peeps think i look more "riang" with this hair style.. ye ker..

Sunday 7 December 2008

The culprit!

~ He sleeps anywhere he pleases ~

~ He doesn't mind sharing your drink ~

~ He turns the house upside down ~

~ He loves bullying the little ones ~
(Patut la ada goldfish yang hilang.. fluffy curik eh?)


Eii.. makin nakal la dia.. super active.. makin org marah makin dia nakal. Spoil giler fluffy ni. Dia tau sumer sayang dia. Tu yang x makan saman. Nakal tapi comey giler. Nak marah lebih2 pun x sampai hati.. ish..


My condominium - U1 Shah Alam (completed end of 2010)

Model of U1 Shah Alam Condominium

Artist's impression

Artist's impression

The show house of my unit. Bungalow type - 1100sq.ft
(from above: the living room, the dining & kitchen, the 3rd bedroom)

Saturday 6 December 2008

My mind travels with him

He's on his way balik kampung for Hari Raya Haji and I've started missing him already. Serious aku tgh angau giler ni.. baca buku kat library pun ingat dia. Hmm.....

Message from a stranger in friendster.. wtf?

To the most pretty angle
Who just run away from heaven?
Going thru the sky
Passing the cloud
Under the sunshine day
Just to reach the earth
To meet the people
To give them the sweetest smile
To take from them the sadness times
To give them the happiest hours till the end of the day
Make them happy
Make them rest
Make them sleep well
To have sweetest dreams
When they wake up they will be hurry up
Just to see your sweet smile over and over again
Do you think I can have this much chance to be one of them?

ok this is no longer a pick up line.. pick up poem terus.. huhuhu.. sian mamat ni..

I wish...

it is easy for me to express how i feel towards him...

  • when both of you have been friends for so long, the chances of him to accept u as his special someone may be very slim.
  • i never though in my life that i would fall to someone who is my friend. yes, we have never been very close previously but an occasion brought us closer.
  • it's nice being around him... he makes my day.. and i know that i am happy just being near him.
  • it's like there's a chemistry between us.. a connection. I just love talking to him.
  • he's like a drug to me.. my own brand of heroin (taken from Twilight.. hehe)
I wonder if he feels the same.. or is it just me... feeling the way that i felt.. I wish i know.. I wish he would tell me.. sigh.....

p/s: this entry is abit mushy.. i guessed i may be in my romantic mode currently.. huhuhu.. just bear with me yeah.. ;p

Friday 5 December 2008

My current scent

D&G - L'eau the one


Dolce & Gabbana introduces L'Eau The One—a covetable, uplifting new fragrance that carries on the lavish legacy of the original The One, and adds a fruity, head-turning twist. This modern, warm, oriental-floral essence embodies the glamorous diva, but with a lighter mood. She is undeniably seductive and eye-catching with a refreshing attitude of winsome ease. The sleek, contemporary bottle, with its refined white gold finish, reflects the sophisticated charm of the woman who is, and will always be, the one.

Notes:
Bergamot, Mandarin, Lychee, Peach, Plum, Floral Muguet, Jasmine, Madonna Lily, Amber, Musk, Moss, Vanilla, Vetyver.

Style:
Divinely fresh and luxuriously fruity.


p/s: a friend of mine gave me the miniature from Paris. Been looking for the perfume for weeks now. Seriously I am going crazy over the scent. Bila la nak dapat perfume ni.. sigh....

An ultimate waste of time

slept at 4am cos i was watching THISSSS.....



and it was ultimately SUCKS!!!

Thursday 4 December 2008

Happy 31st Anniversary Ayah & Mama!

:: 4 December 2008 ::

Ayah & Mama all time favourite


1977 till now.. 31 years of marriage = 5 girls.. hehehe..


The parents & the girls (when we were in UK, we used to call ourselves the "Spice Girls".. hehe)
(From left: Dina, Mira, Ayah, Mama, Wati, Iza & Me)


From left: Iza, Mira, Baby Iman, Dina, Ayah, Mama, Aunty Arah & Sweet Naz.. hahaha..

If I'm so wonderful, why am i still single?


I am so gonna look for this book. Perhaps it would be nice to do some reading while sun-bathing (kalau x hujan kan) in Phuket?

Wednesday 3 December 2008

Girls talk

Met Rila and Zurina last Monday night. So b4 Zu sampai, sempat la bergossip dgn Rila. Gossips?? Not exactly gossips la.. basically bout me, being and flying on clouds. Sorry Zu, didn't mean to keep it from you. Seriously i mmg nak share with you my excitement but I think it's just not the right time yet. Ok2, back to my so called "gossips" with Miss Rila, one part of the conversation went like this:-

Rila : Owh my god girl, there are sparkles all over your face.. i know that feeling..

Me : Is it that obvious?

Rila : Oh yes... i know you.. ok updates...?

Me : Ah, I'm going crazie.. do u think he likes me as much as i like him? you know, not the friend kind of like?

Rila : Have you told him that you like him?

Me : Giler aaah... that would be so embarrassing ok. What if he doesn't like me that way?

Rila : But at least you know the answer now. Don't go around the bushes. It might hurt you later.

Me : Uh.. I cannot bear another frustration. Ok, let say, I bagitau dia that I like him.. then, what next?

Rila : Then if he likes you, perhaps you guys can start from there.

Me : And what if he doesn't like me that way? We've been friends for so long, I just don't want to spoil it. I love the feeling I'm having right now. It made my day.. u know after what had happened previously.

Rila : Yes darling, I know. I wish i have that feeling too. At least, your guy is in front of you. Where's mine?

Me : My guy? I wish Rila, I wish.. It's weird, after so long, tiba2 i have this feeling towards him. Where does the feelings come from?

Rila : Things happened dear. You don't asked for feelings to come.. it comes.. That is what love is all about.

Me : Love? Yeah... For all i know, he may not even notice that I exist. Sad huh...?

Rila : No la... think positive ok.... hmmmm.......

Me: Hmmmm.....

So, the conversation was left hanging. Zu came 5 mins later and we just dropped the subject. Still feeling guilty of keeping it from Zu but I know she would understand why. And the chances of Zu reading this is slim if not absence altogether. So i'm pretty safe for now.. hopefully... hehehe...

Tuesday 2 December 2008

Twilight




I seriously wanna watch this movie... I want my Edward Cullen too... :p

Monday 1 December 2008

Dating?

Someone asked me to define "dating". So dear, here is the definition of it (though i think i should rephrase the question to "are you seeing anyone at the moment?")

Dating:
A date refers to an activity two people share together with the intention of getting to know each other better on a potentially romantic level. Two people who are "dating" therefore, have shared several dates together and have made it clear to one another they are interested in more than just a friendship - even if so far the exchanges have been purely friendly in nature. Dating is, essentially, getting to know someone over an extended period of time to determine if a relationship is something worth pursuing.


p/s : how can one make a person ridiculously on cloud nine...? i wonder....

Sunday 30 November 2008

No string attached

Perhaps being single is not so bad after all. Peeps, i have officially ended my 4 years relationship for good now. No turning back. I'm starting a new chapter of my life.. yes at a 27 years of age but i guessed, by looking at what happened to so many real life dramas around me, perhaps it is a good decision to be made. No regrets for sure. Love? I have to live with it. If he is not meant to be, then he is not meant to be no matter how hard i've tried. As you grow older, sometimes, love alone is not enough. U need more. U need to feel the love, u need the sparkles, u need someone who is responsible, someone who can protect you, someone who can be there for you when ever u need him. Someone that never takes you for granted. Someone that appreciate u. And I guess, i still have not found that someone and yes, i will never stop looking for that someone.

But again, for all that has happened, i consider myself lucky. Among all, i still have others who still love me unconditionally. Family & friends who have been there all along. Who have been supporting me all the time. Ears to listen, shoulders to cry on. Thanks people. U mean so much to me...

Friday 28 November 2008

That's what sisters are for..


10 reasons why i love my sisters:-

1. they are there during your ups and downs;

2. they are the one who shares with you the feeling when you are ridiculously on cloud nine even though you may be tgh syok sendiri;

3. they are the one who tells your parents that you are no longer in a relationship and begged our parents to be supportive n don't put any pressure on you;

4. they are supportive in their own ways;

5. they may be very mean but for good reasons;

6. they let u make the decision but never leave u alone when it turned out to be a bad decision;

7. they listen to your problems and craps no matter how many times they have been hearing it for;

8. they give honest opinions and criticise u b4 u embarrass yourself further;

9. they are always there when u have no one to go out with; and

10. they love u unconditionally, again, in their own ways.

Wednesday 26 November 2008

What happened in Bandung stays in Bandung....


Was the holiday trip a start of something new or it's just a feeling yet to be discovered...?

** More photos will be uploaded shortly **

Friday 21 November 2008

Dinner with Farah

Hmm.. bukan senang nak jumpa cik Farah sorang ni. Lately bz jer dia. Biasa la bak kata dia, ujung2 tahun ni mmg bz. From one plan to another, akhirnya dpt la ber'dinner dgn dia tadi. Update meng'update each other mmg perkara lumrah bila berjumpa. Me, venting out my frustration on my current personal problems and the dillemas that i currently have to face. She? hmmm... apa citer ek dia? on cloud nine kot.. hehehe.. okie that one, let her do the updates to all.. hehehe.. i x tau apa2.. kui kui kui..

So we went to i-can't-remember-the-name of the restaurant, somewhere near Farah's house. Diet diet gak.. but western nyer pasal.. makan jerr... hehehe.. We were alone for an hour or so before Farah's brothers, Wan & Akim, as well as Farah's sister inlaw (hehehe.. saje jer), Beng joined us. Macam reunion family Farah la plak.. thank god mmg kenal sumer2 tu.. kalo x sure cam out of place lak kan.. kekekkekeke...

So ni jer la pic yg sempat amek.. ceh ceh.. nak test2 camera baru pun ye gak kan farah kan.. kekekeke... my goodness, selekeh nya aku.. aaahhh.. lantak la... huhuhu...

bebeng, moi & farah

farah & her two "poyo" brothers.. hehehe..

Thursday 20 November 2008

Another item to divert the $$$ to... ;)


Monogram Canvas Speedy 30

As a result of...

I think most of my peeps are well aware that i am currently has stopped buying clothes for now... oh yes, until i see the result of my after work work out at the gym and the usage of the product i'm selling, beautiful corsage. So, as a result of not buying clothes like i used to, i ended up buying other things, in which one of them is...








pretty nice, isn't it??

Wednesday 19 November 2008

One of the weeks in November

Just a little bit of this and that:-

Monday
Ok, I had 3 more days before i go on leave. Had to clear up the "banjaran titiwangsa" at my workstation which i successfully piled up the load since i had such a very busy week last week.

Tuesday
Still clearing up my work load. My throat has been killing me since few days back. I was feeling darn sick. As a result, i was on non-smoking days for couple of days now. Haven't even touch the one that my colleague bought for me from Langkawi.. sigh! Had excellently finished clearing up the banjaran titiwangsa b4 i left for the day. But still there are couple of things i still need to do before i go on holiday/study leave.

Wednesday
Darn! I really need to go to work. I havent done my leave memo, submit my timesheet, my passport is still at the office, etc. etc.. argh!! my sore throat is getting worst. had an extremely bad cough. I think i'm gonna have my annual (which i normally kena in Nov/Dec every year, for some reason, and i yet to figure out why) asthma attack. Owh no.. macamana nak gi holiday kalau sakit. Darn... Anyway, due to my not so good condition, i took the day off. Came to office at night to settle couple of things that needed to be settled and of cos, passport picking... hehe...

Thursday
The beginning of my 3 weeks (2 weeks++ actually) break. Hooorrrayyyyy!!!!
To my 2 dear peeps, u know who u are, thanks for helping out during my absence. Anything just buzz me up ok. No worries, no such thing as disturbing my leave. Cuma, while i'm in bandung, sms jer la... mahal seh kalau answer calls.. hehehhe.. okie, anything keep me updated, such as if "anyone" is not very happy on any days again.. huhuhu...


Friday
I guess i'll be starting to pack for my hols... ;p

Thursday 30 October 2008

Is it worth it..?

When a relationship has involved mean words and hitting each other, isn't it a clear message that you are not suitable for each other...?

Tuesday 28 October 2008

Congratulations Amri & Amie!

Congratulations to both Amri & Amie.

Nikah : 24 Oct 2008
Reception - Amie's side : 25 Oct 2008
Reception - Amri's side : 26 Oct 2008

Snapshots:









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Monday 13 October 2008

Quote for the day

'Whatever you give a woman, she's going to multiply.
If you give her sperm, she'll give you a baby.
If you give her a house, she'll give you a home.
If you give her groceries, she'll give you a meal.
If you give her a smile, she'll give you her heart.
She multiplies and enlarges what is given to her.
So - if you give her any crap, you will receive a ton of shit.'

Sunday 12 October 2008

Mamma Mia!

Went to watch Mamma Mia! today. Dragged Zul to watch it... he was sceptical as usual and was at all time restless... i think. Nevertheless, he who DETESTS soppy musicals was caught tapping his feet to the songs! So I think he actually enjoyed it too but was too ego to admit it.. duh!

But as for me i truly enjoyed it! So peeps, please watch it. You won't regret it. Bring your husband/ wife, boyfriend/ girlfriend, mum/ dad... even take the lady who makes tea for you in the office....hehe.. just kidding.. take a Chance on Me... Its Super Trouper and all that Money, Money, Money spent, will make you feel like a Dancing Queen! (or King).. ;p

Tuesday 7 October 2008

Flu... flu... pls go away...

huhuhu... x larat nya selesema.... nak balik.. nak balik.... half n hour to go.... :(

Sunday 5 October 2008

U should know better

I know it's still the month of Syawal and we should forgive and forget.. but my dear, u should think wisely before saying things that u are well aware would pisses me off.. ok? Perhaps, this is another lesson to be learned... yeah as if you would learn anything from it... sigh....

Saturday 4 October 2008

Back from hometown

Yay! I'm back in Subang. Bestnya back to my own room and my cozy bed after a loooong drive from Kota Bharu -> Kuala Terengganu -> Cherating -> KL. Well actually, from Cherating to KL la. We left KB yesterday, singgah a few of our relatives' houses kat KT and overnight at Cherating. Approximately 9 hours of driving before we reached our home sweet home. All the on-the-road focus, 120-160km/hr driving, overtakes were darn exhausted. Kecut gak especially kat Karak Highway yang jalan macam ular kena pukul tu and kampung areas where u have to watch for motor-cyclists, kids, cows and goats crossing the roads and not to forget jalan kampung yang bumppy giler. Owh well, what an experience. I hope that was my first and last driving to KB. Seriously, tak sanggup den.

Reached Subang at 6.50pm. Just in time to take Fluffy home from Healing Room which closes at 7pm. Kesian dia kena tinggal kat situ for a week since no one can help to look after him when we were away. I called the vet 4 days after we sent him there and the doctor said that he was still down and ate only half of his food. Sedih sangat gamak nya cos Fluffy and I have never been apart. Sekarang ni pun, Fluffy kinda upset even though dah balik rumah. Maybe merajuk kot cos we sent him away for a while. Takpe, hope he's gonna be ok soon.

Oh ya, speaking of cats, Junior, who went missing before Raya, tiba-tiba hari ni dia ada pulak kat rumah. My sisters and I thought dia sedeh cos his bestfriend, kiss kiss, passed away recently. Thank God, Junior is ok and back home. Btw, Iz gonna give me another Persian after Raya. I asked for a female so bleh kawin kan dgan Fluffy. Ayah seems fine when i told him about the new cat but mama macam against it pulak. Oh yes, all the blabbing bout bulu/hama/asthma semua keluar. Owh well.. mothers...

Anyway, sampai-sampai rumah tadi sempat pergi open house my neighbour. Sedap nya makan nasi dagang even though kat Kelantan patut nya dah puas makan dah... hehehe.. The open house was together with Ayu's engagement event juga. Congratulation Ayu!

Okie dokies, i'm gonna go for shower now. Am so tired but nak keluar for a ciggy kejap. Terpaksa puasa sepanjang my trip back from KB. Almaklum la convoy with the parents.. and mata Si Ayah mmg tajam, nampak jer apa anak dia buat kat kereta belakang.. huhuhu..

Till next update...

p/s: tgh mogok x nak cakap dgn zul.. he is such a "_______". Geram betul!! huhuhu...

Thursday 2 October 2008

Takziah

Salam takziah to my close friend, Farah and family, ke atas pemergian adik ke Rahmatullah. Semoga beliau ditempatkan dikalangan hamba-hamba Nya yang beriman. Mari lah bersama-sama kita sedekahkan surah Al-Fatihah kepada arwah.

Wednesday 1 October 2008

Thursday 25 September 2008

What a woman should know...



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A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE...
enough money within her control to move out,
rent a place of her own,
even if she never wants to or needs to...


A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...
something perfect to wear whether the employer,
or date of her dreams wants to see her in an hour...


A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...
a past juicy enough that she's looking forward to
re-telling it in her old age....


A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...
one friend who always makes her laugh.... and one who lets her cry...


A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...
eight matching plates, wine glasses with stems,
and a recipe for a meal,
that will make her guests feel honored...


A WOMEN SHOULD HAVE...
a feeling of control over her destiny....


EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
how to fall in love without losing herself..


EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
how to quit a job,
break up with a lover,
and confront a friend without;
ruining the friendship...


EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
when to try harder... and WHEN TO WALK AWAY...


EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
that she can't change the length of her calves,
the width of her hips, or the nature of her parents..


EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
that her childhood may not have been perfect...but its over...


EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
what she would and wouldn't do for love or more...


EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
how to live alone.... even if she doesn't like it...


EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW..
whom she can trust, whom she can't,
and why she shoul dn't take it personally...


EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
where to go...
be it to her best friend's kitchen table...
or a charming inn in the woods...
when her soul needs soothing...


EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW.. .
what she can and can't accomplish in a day ....
a month...and a year...



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