Anyone wanna go??? Looking for kaki to go watch him LIVEEEEE!
Saturday, 31 January 2009
Friday, 30 January 2009
The call AGAIN!
Another call from you know who just a while ago.
Sigh.. again.. ajak keluar.. no no.. not mid valley no more. He called to ask me out for a dinner at this restaurant.. once.. and i repeat once used to be our favourite eating place. And again.. I said no. No doubt i really miss the restaurant. No.. not because of the memories with him but bcos they have this yummy special prawn dish that i love sooooo much. I can hear his dissapoinment from the way he breathe at the other side. I'm not sorry for saying "no" everytime he calls and asked me out. Come to think about it, he has been calling quite frequent lately though the calls only lasted for no more than 5 mins. I ought to save his office number so next time i know i should have not picked up the calls.
Honestly, deep down inside, i no longer have the feeling of wanting to see him anymore. Takde perasaan pun. He is just simply my past and nothing more than that now. I've started to move forward thus i will never stop and look back. Most of the time, kita tak nampak hikmah yang ada di atas semua yang terjadi pada masa tu. I used to be so sad that kadang2 termenyalahkan takdir di atas apa yg terjadi. Rendah sungguh iman pada waktu tu.
Now, when i looked back, i am thankful for what had happened. I used to read this one particular poem and have always planted it on my mind. There is this one particular sentence in the poem that i always live in denial - "when someone is not worth it now, he is not going to be worth it in the future". When i was with him, i have my close friends and sisters who kept on telling me that he is not worth it and he was using me, etc. Painful huh? And i was always denying the comments with words to defend him and i have always hoped that miracle would happened and that all the comments were wrong. But miracle didnt happened and i ended up eating my own words.
To him - i'm not sure if he reads my blog cos he used to know that i have this place in the cyberworld to speak for my heart - if in anyway, you are reading this, go on with your life. Find another girl and treat her right. Just so you know, it is not my intention to take revenge on you.
Yes, i can still remember all those fights we had and all the mean words you said to me previously but i am not mean enough to take revenge. If u are suffering, u suffer from your own actions and stupidity. It's not me who break your heart. You broke your own heart with the things you did. If i was such a bad person when i was with u, take a look at yourself. At least i was never unfaithful when i was with u... but u? u did get urself involved with another girl even though you said you were only friend to her. Remember I used to tell you, i can try to tolerate anything. All those attitudes of yours. But when it comes to another girl, I do not need to hear any explanation. I did what i did and dont bother explaining to me anything cos it doesnt matter anymore. Before and now. So my advise to you, get a grip. I know i have. You dont need me to shine a light or guide you. You have a mind of your own, so use it.
Owh well, enuf said for now. Suddenly i have the urge to express myself at this hour when i should be going to the GYM! Sigh... it's 7.45pm... i'm gonna pack my things now. Go down the elevator slowly while deciding of gyming or not.. sigh......
Sigh.. again.. ajak keluar.. no no.. not mid valley no more. He called to ask me out for a dinner at this restaurant.. once.. and i repeat once used to be our favourite eating place. And again.. I said no. No doubt i really miss the restaurant. No.. not because of the memories with him but bcos they have this yummy special prawn dish that i love sooooo much. I can hear his dissapoinment from the way he breathe at the other side. I'm not sorry for saying "no" everytime he calls and asked me out. Come to think about it, he has been calling quite frequent lately though the calls only lasted for no more than 5 mins. I ought to save his office number so next time i know i should have not picked up the calls.
Honestly, deep down inside, i no longer have the feeling of wanting to see him anymore. Takde perasaan pun. He is just simply my past and nothing more than that now. I've started to move forward thus i will never stop and look back. Most of the time, kita tak nampak hikmah yang ada di atas semua yang terjadi pada masa tu. I used to be so sad that kadang2 termenyalahkan takdir di atas apa yg terjadi. Rendah sungguh iman pada waktu tu.
Now, when i looked back, i am thankful for what had happened. I used to read this one particular poem and have always planted it on my mind. There is this one particular sentence in the poem that i always live in denial - "when someone is not worth it now, he is not going to be worth it in the future". When i was with him, i have my close friends and sisters who kept on telling me that he is not worth it and he was using me, etc. Painful huh? And i was always denying the comments with words to defend him and i have always hoped that miracle would happened and that all the comments were wrong. But miracle didnt happened and i ended up eating my own words.
To him - i'm not sure if he reads my blog cos he used to know that i have this place in the cyberworld to speak for my heart - if in anyway, you are reading this, go on with your life. Find another girl and treat her right. Just so you know, it is not my intention to take revenge on you.
Yes, i can still remember all those fights we had and all the mean words you said to me previously but i am not mean enough to take revenge. If u are suffering, u suffer from your own actions and stupidity. It's not me who break your heart. You broke your own heart with the things you did. If i was such a bad person when i was with u, take a look at yourself. At least i was never unfaithful when i was with u... but u? u did get urself involved with another girl even though you said you were only friend to her. Remember I used to tell you, i can try to tolerate anything. All those attitudes of yours. But when it comes to another girl, I do not need to hear any explanation. I did what i did and dont bother explaining to me anything cos it doesnt matter anymore. Before and now. So my advise to you, get a grip. I know i have. You dont need me to shine a light or guide you. You have a mind of your own, so use it.
Owh well, enuf said for now. Suddenly i have the urge to express myself at this hour when i should be going to the GYM! Sigh... it's 7.45pm... i'm gonna pack my things now. Go down the elevator slowly while deciding of gyming or not.. sigh......
Wednesday, 28 January 2009
The call
I received a phone call after work today. Just before i was about to go to the gym. It was a fixed line number so I didn't know who it was right until i heard the voice of the caller.
Caller: Awak..
Me: Yup.. hm, napa kol?
Caller: Saja jer. Cuti panjang buat apa?
Me: Jalan.
Caller: Gi mana?
Me: JB
Caller: Tak ajak pun. Gi ngan sapa?
Me: Kawan
Caller: Saya kenal?
Me: Nope. Nak apa kol ni?
Caller: Jom gi mid valley
Me: Malas
Caller: Kenapa malas?
Me: Nak gi gym
Caller: Jom la, saya nak cari barang. Teman saya.
Me: Malas la. Ok la. Nak letak.
Caller: Jap2, kenapa sombong sangat?
Me: Kenapa call lagi?
Caller: Awak dah jumpa org lain?
Me: Awak rasa?
Caller: Tak tahu
Me: Tak payah amek tau pasal saya dah. Kita dah pergi separate ways kan?
Caller: Sigh... so betul x nak teman saya gi Mid Valley mlm ni?
Me: Nope
Caller: Takpe la, next time la.
Me: Bye
Caller: Bye
So that was how the 5 mins conversation started and ended. Please la, the caller knows well aware that i wouldn't want to go out or even see him anymore. I just don't understand which part of "NO" doesn't he understand. Wish i could tell him right onto his face that i'm with someone now. Tapi x sampai hati regardless all the shit he did previously. Hm, biar la.. it's none of his business to know anything about me anymore. Furthermore, I would not want to break the boyfriend's heart if he knows i go out with my ex. I would be upset myself if the boyfriend still sees his exes even though there's nothing going on anymore... hmm... sigh!
Caller: Awak..
Me: Yup.. hm, napa kol?
Caller: Saja jer. Cuti panjang buat apa?
Me: Jalan.
Caller: Gi mana?
Me: JB
Caller: Tak ajak pun. Gi ngan sapa?
Me: Kawan
Caller: Saya kenal?
Me: Nope. Nak apa kol ni?
Caller: Jom gi mid valley
Me: Malas
Caller: Kenapa malas?
Me: Nak gi gym
Caller: Jom la, saya nak cari barang. Teman saya.
Me: Malas la. Ok la. Nak letak.
Caller: Jap2, kenapa sombong sangat?
Me: Kenapa call lagi?
Caller: Awak dah jumpa org lain?
Me: Awak rasa?
Caller: Tak tahu
Me: Tak payah amek tau pasal saya dah. Kita dah pergi separate ways kan?
Caller: Sigh... so betul x nak teman saya gi Mid Valley mlm ni?
Me: Nope
Caller: Takpe la, next time la.
Me: Bye
Caller: Bye
So that was how the 5 mins conversation started and ended. Please la, the caller knows well aware that i wouldn't want to go out or even see him anymore. I just don't understand which part of "NO" doesn't he understand. Wish i could tell him right onto his face that i'm with someone now. Tapi x sampai hati regardless all the shit he did previously. Hm, biar la.. it's none of his business to know anything about me anymore. Furthermore, I would not want to break the boyfriend's heart if he knows i go out with my ex. I would be upset myself if the boyfriend still sees his exes even though there's nothing going on anymore... hmm... sigh!
Tuesday, 27 January 2009
Lucky
Lucky - Jason Mraz feat. Colbie Caillat
Do you hear me?
Talking to you
Across the water
Across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky
Oh my, baby I'm trying
Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard
Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Ohhhohhhohhhohhohhohhhohh
They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you, I promise you I will
Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday
And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair
Though the breezes through the trees
Move so pretty, you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now
Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday
Ohhhohhhohhhohhohhohhhohh
Ohhhohhhohhhohhohhohhhohhohhohhohh
It's officially ours
I have started missing u...
Malam ini kasih, teringat aku padamu
Seakan kau hadir, disisi menemaniku
Ku yakinkan diri ini, agar tiada sepi
Kulewatkan hadir didalam mimpiku
Seandainya mungkin, ku mampu terbang ke awan
Detik ini juga ku akan melayang ke sana
Kan ku bawa pulang dirimu yang selalu ku sayang
Bersama berdua kita bahagia
c/o
Kasih.. dengarlah, hati ku berkata
Aku cinta kepada diri mu sayang
Kasih.. pecayalah kepada diriku
Hidup mati ku hanya untukmu
Malam ini kasih
Teringat aku kepadamu
Seakan kau hadir disisi menemaniku
Ku yakinkan diri ini agar tiada sepi
Lulewatkan hari didalam mimpiku
Seandainya mungkin, ku mampu terbang ke awan
Detik ini juga ku akan melayang ke sana
Kan ku bawa pulang diri mu yang selalu ku sayang
Bersama berdua kita bahagia
Kasih.. dengarlah, hati ku berkata
Aku cinta kepada diri mu sayang
Kasih.. pecayalah kepada diriku
Hidup mati ku hanya untukmu
Song "Kasih", by Hetty Koes Endang
Malam ini kasih, teringat aku padamu
Seakan kau hadir, disisi menemaniku
Ku yakinkan diri ini, agar tiada sepi
Kulewatkan hadir didalam mimpiku
Seandainya mungkin, ku mampu terbang ke awan
Detik ini juga ku akan melayang ke sana
Kan ku bawa pulang dirimu yang selalu ku sayang
Bersama berdua kita bahagia
c/o
Kasih.. dengarlah, hati ku berkata
Aku cinta kepada diri mu sayang
Kasih.. pecayalah kepada diriku
Hidup mati ku hanya untukmu
Malam ini kasih
Teringat aku kepadamu
Seakan kau hadir disisi menemaniku
Ku yakinkan diri ini agar tiada sepi
Lulewatkan hari didalam mimpiku
Seandainya mungkin, ku mampu terbang ke awan
Detik ini juga ku akan melayang ke sana
Kan ku bawa pulang diri mu yang selalu ku sayang
Bersama berdua kita bahagia
Kasih.. dengarlah, hati ku berkata
Aku cinta kepada diri mu sayang
Kasih.. pecayalah kepada diriku
Hidup mati ku hanya untukmu
Song "Kasih", by Hetty Koes Endang
Friday, 23 January 2009
Tuesday, 20 January 2009
S.O.S
I seriously need to get out of town and take a break before my no-life-months begin... why is it so hard to choose a place.... : (
Sunday, 18 January 2009
Saturday, 17 January 2009
Ayat ayat cinta
Desir pasir di padang tandus
Segersang pemikiran hati
Terkisah ku di antara
Cinta yang rumit
Bila keyakinanku datang
Kasih bukan sekedar cinta
Pengorbanan cinta yang agung Kupertaruhkan
*
Maafkan bila ku tak sempurna
Cinta ini tak mungkin ku cegah
Ayat-ayat cinta bercerita
Cintaku padamu
Bila bahagia mulai menyentuh
Seakan ku bisa hidup lebih lama
Namun harus kutinggalkan cinta
Ketika ku bersujud
Song "Ayat ayat cinta", by Rossa
Friday, 16 January 2009
Bila Rasaku Ini Rasamu
Aku Memang Terlanjur Mencintaimu
Dan Tak Pernah Ku Sesali Itu
Seluruh Jiwa Telah Ku Serahkan
Menggenggam Janji Setiaku
Ku mohon Jangan Jadikan Semua Ini
Alasan Kau Menyakitiku
Meskipun Cintamu Tak Hanya Untukku
Tapi Cobalah Sejenak Mengerti
*
Bila Rasaku Ini Rasamu
Sanggupkah Engkau Menahan Sakitnya
Terkhianati Cinta Yang Kau Jaga
Coba Bayangkan Kembali
Betapa Hancurnya Hati Ini Kasih
Semua Telah Terjadi
Aku Memang Terlanjur Mencintaimu
Song "Bila Rasaku Ini Rasamu", by Kerispatih
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